2005-12-17 - 7:00 p.m.
Sometimes is sucks to be single. Example: Christmas. Yes I am buying myself pretty things because no one else will. Well not a boyfriend anyways. I know my friends care and love me but y'know its not the same as a boyfy. However Im not going to resort to what some people do and go out and hook up with random people. That was last week.
Ahem.
I went out with some girlys went for a meal went to a club hooked up with a guy went back to a hotel had okish sex then got a taxi home. Yep I felt like a foool the next day. I paid 3/4 of the cost for the room and Ive a feeling he might have taken money from my bag when I was in the bathroom. I would never admit this to anyone apart from my diary but fuck Im stupid sometimes. I got caught up in the arrragh its nearly xmas Im nearly 25 and Im nowhere close to settling down and nobody will ever want me. These are dangerous things to be thinking when Im under the influence.
But that was last week and Im trying to put it behind and not drown in a puddle of guilt. Buying pretty things helps. Yesterday I bought myself some new funky glasses, today perfume and a gorgeous little watch with diamonds. Im on the lookout for some converse trainers as well. Sigh I dont need a man.
